Its the Sign of Things to Come

am i blind to this? i mean really its obvious when i look to other people, but am i completely unaware of what is going on here. i don't know, i can see it from her point, but i'm sure that my ordeal is much much different. after everything that has happened throughout all this time, i am at a much bigger loss. i don't want to be that type of girl, but you know what, there is no changing my feelings. and this could not be turning out the way it is. if you think about all the times before, how desperate and hopeful that whole situation was. i completely disregarded the feelings of others. well yeah now i know how it feels. and this is probably the most amazing thing that ever could have happened to me. by far iv never been so completely sure of a feeling. this is a definite. no doubt about it. 

fuck.