Far From Here

Sydney. Fifteen. Freshmen. I'm In Love With Herbert. So Much More Then You Could Ever Imagine. I'm Happy. 

with all these internet networking sites, its crazy to think about how many of these ridiculous "about me"'s there are. i mean seriously, i have accounts on myspace, facebook, flickr, blogspot, aim, yahoo, and everything else you could ever imagine. i am a sucker for networking, and its sad to see that im living in

 this little online world. its not that i don't go out, i very clearly have a life. i have an amazing boyfriend, and fantastic friends. im currently in the middle of my school's social circle, and i could not be happier. but i have noticed a change in my priorities ever since i discovered this online metropolis. 

before i even knew what myspace/facebook was, i'd come home, find a snack, do homework, watch some television, shower, and sleep. now my entire life seems to be revolving around the internet. i come home, chat on facebook and ichat for a couple hours, put off homework, set an alarm for when i have to force myself to get off the internet and start my school work, press the snooze button a couple of times, start my homework at 8:30, stay up until

 12:00, shower, stair out my closet for the next day, check facebook yet again, and finally get some sleep.   

i take photoshoots with my camera, and webcamera. i get all dolled up, and take 10,15,20 pictures, trying to find the perfect one to post. im turing into the pixelized obsessor. everyone just seems so fake. and i am a complete hypocrite to say this, but its true. why is it that people can't take one picture and have that be it? everyone's cameras are filled with shots of themselves, making everyone look vain, and shallow, and self obsessed. when a suitable picture is taken, it is then uploaded and edited on top of that! not only does it take more then once to get a good picture, you then have to go and airbrush your skin, or edit your eyes to make them that perfect perky shade of blue. 

so who is real? its said that everyone looks better on the internet, and that is true. it gives everyone the oppertunity to look flawless. its addicting. i am not going to lie. i got sucked into it too.

so as i sit here, writing about my internet addiction, i want to try something. i want to take a picture. one single picture, and post it here on this blog. no editing, no second chances, one shot. so here it goes. hello world, this is me at the moment. Sunday February 1st, 2009 9:26 PM.