In The End

it is the last day of swim practice. AND i'm happy and sad. it has been so long, and i have met so many wonderful people. its just a little sad to see it end. its the end 

of many things. the end of january. the end of the marking period. the end of winter sports. the end of first half electives. the end.

i do not like the light. the day's are getting longer, and the nights shorter, and i hate it. i like when the darkness rolls around at 4:30. it just seems more peaceful. the light just makes the end of the day seem so much further away. i can't stand it. 

thats really all i have to rant on about for the day.

im sitting here, putting off homework, staring at my phone. my hair is still wet, and progressively getting larger and curlier and frizzier. my jeans feel loose and baggy, which is weird because they are the smallest, tightest, jeans you could find. i think im loosing weight? i have no clue. none of my clothes fit

 me anymore. maybe i'm just loosing it. yeah, thats it, im loosing my mind.